Life with Two Busy Boys

I have had a hard time wanting to write on my blog. I guess I'm having a hard time all around so it would only make sense that blogging would be difficult. The range of emotions that I feel over the loss of my mom is overwhelming. I feel so incredibly sad, but that is also mixed with guilt, loneliness, anger, confusion, and regret. There is little joy that I can find in my situation right now. Joshua & John definitely light up my days. I have little patience or motivation. I feel overwhelmed with all that I have to do to settle my mom's affairs but yet don't know where to start on the next task. I am thankful to the many friends/family who have reached out to support us in many different ways. I'm touched by the TONS of cards that I have received. I actually read through them pretty often and it's so therapeutic. People keep asking me what can they do...and that is such a hard question to answer cause I don't even know which way is up right now. I do know that people also don't necessarily know how to act around me, but I can tell you that I love to talk about my mom. Talking about her might make me cry, but it is helpful too. Bringing her up isn't a bad thing because she is already on my mind constantly. I just miss her SOOOOO terribly much.